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AM I AN IMPOSTER?

Imposter syndrome (IS) is a behavioral health phenomenon described as self-doubt of intellect, skills, or accomplishments among high-achieving individuals

  • NIH.gov (National Institutes Of Health)

I started my developer journey as a copycat trying to build the next Facebook by tweaking PHP code and learning about HTML, CSS, and Javascript at the end. I kept my failed projects in a junkyard project where I could go and find code that could help me build my next project; always inspired by the next trend in town.

As I got older, I found myself doing projects to challenge myself more than connecting with that project on an emotional level (for example: fixing a problem that bothers me and others)

My most advanced project is a web app called "Hay" (https://gethayapp.com/), a mental health helper.

Did I struggle with mental health problems?
Once...2 weeks battling depression without knowing it. One of my colleagues asked me if I was depressed during that period and I snapped out of it as quickly as I could and never went back in that dark place.

Now, I build a web app to help people with their mental health and I feel like an imposter because I wasn't that deep in depression to pretend to be emotionally connected to that issue. I have empathy as everybody who knows how mental health problems can negatively affect and destroy people's lives. But, I am not the one with the story to back up the web app that I build.

I tried to find a middle ground to cope with that imposter syndrome.
I built a lightweight mental health app compared to my peers and I chose the preventive angle because Prevention is better than cure...in my experience.

Should I throw my web app in my junkyard project and call it a day to stop that imposter syndrome?
Or should I follow through with my web app to get over that imposter syndrome?

Let me know in the comment section. Your advice will be helpful and appreciated.

Peace

on June 22, 2024