Pressure to do something meaningful and useful
I tend to feel too much pressure while trying to be productive during the day - like I'm running behind on everyone and time is too short. At night time, when people are supposed to stop working, I feel more relaxed and able to focus - maybe because it feels like anything I do is an extra on everyone else around me?
Maybe I should internalize the comparison to be with people in the US, that way I could feel relaxed during the day here 😄
I also feel a natural push to stay awake at night, and am not really able to wake up in the morning - I usually only feel rested if I wake up after 10am, or preferably even closer to noon or 1pm. I've tried staying up for an entire night to reset this, or going to sleep earlier, or setting an alarm for 9am everyday, but it is really hard for me.
I'm not sure whether I should keep fighting being a night owl and forcing my sleep schedule to change or just give up, be happy & productive at night, and wake up at noon everyday, feeling a little miserable for missing out on the morning.