Finally taking a step after procrastinating for a decade.

Taking a step forward with any of the ideas I have thought of, always seems to be a very hard thing to do. The people close to me are people who think today about a new idea and you see it within the next day taking fruition but with me, the problem is with the first step. Over the years I have had quite some ideas, some identicals to mine even made it happen big, bigger than my limited thought could let me imagine with. But then, I didn't do it. And the world is for the doers and somehow I didn't happen to be one of them though I have seen sparks of motivation, the inner fire to shake things up...and make it happen....but then over time.....you lose that fire. Self-critique or trying to make holes into the idea one way or the other. Fear of doing etc.

So what about now?. Now I want to get some shit done. All the years I
couldn't understand the real 'purpose' find passion and turn it into something I loved doing. Though numerous books I read and everything said one thing find purpose/passion and all of that. Though, I think I have found my purpose outside of the things I do - I'm looking to integrate it all in the things I want to work on.

Now what I have realized is I was always chasing ideas with more priority given to the financials. So now, what is different is I don't want to make my idea bloat big in my head with my imagination (backed by market research) but to at least do something that I love doing.

I don't know if everyone faces this but once I start with an idea I make it bigger and bigger, adding more onto my idea...until the point, the idea is a huge sky-touching tower and I'm a tiny guy looking onto the tower and I'm like 'Shit, I can't do this, I ain't got no resources and stuff to do something this big'. I have been in Design Industry for a decade and more started as a front end coder but then got caught up with just designing as my clients wanted me to design rather than code :).

So here I am, all set to start very small with a very small idea that's close to my heart. I got everything from the internet and the community and all of those people walking me through my designing career and its something I want to give back to the younger lot of designers, who could have better access to certain things.

Why am I writing this?. I want to launch - post everything to do with the project here. It's the best community I have got in touch with lately. And hopefully, I would do something I couldn't do in a decade. After all its a whole new decade now :).

Wishing all the best to lazy ones like me who procrastinate a lot. Hope we all can make something happen this year and keep on throughout this new decade.
Cheers.