I'm not sure how to start this or exactly where I'm going, but some of you are likely to understand my point. I'll try to keep it short.
Especially now with this outbreak, the futility of nearly everything makes itself very apparent, but even before this I just felt that everyone was developing these fiddly apps that add zero value to anyone besides other people working for businesses that add no value to anything. I mean, I know one can make money with some slack app to aid standups, but Jesus man, am I the only one that feels this is completely useless in the grand scheme of things? How do you get any satisfaction from this?
My background is software engineering, I've worked at a big unicorn whose only purpose is to get people to click a link to book a hotel and in exchange, we got 0.5€. Another place I worked developed software to put a text overlay on broadcast video. The futility of it all got to me really badly. I was giving my life away for someone to click a link to book an overpriced hotel and for us to get a few cents.
So the first reason I wanted to get away from that was all these extremely detailed fiddly things that don't make a difference, but I figured owning them would feel different from coding them. But if I have another vapid discussion about someone's "problems" that need solutions when those problems are just caused by too much mindless action in the first place, I'll go mad. Reduce BS, don't add more BS.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not a "peace and love" hippie, but I can't seem to get into these types of businesses focused on insanely small details. Have I gone too cynical or am I just not meant for this? I often feel like I'm better at improving things by getting rid of BS and really not made to add more BS. This could stem from extreme laziness, but extremely lazy people don't work out 6 times a week, so I'm not sure.
It could also stem from extreme selfishness, I want to help myself but not necessarily others, but I don't want to help myself enough to use others to reach my goals if that makes sense?
Anyway, I asked this on here because I feel some of you might have been in this place and have tips.