How do you combine full-time job and side projects?

TL;DR
How not to feel ashamed if you commited more lines of code to your repo in a day than in your company's repo in a week (sometimes)?

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Hello, this is my first post here.

Long story short, I taught myself coding to make my apps, not to work for someone else, but life is a b***h, and here I am — full-time senior frontend developer.

Right before covid the startup where I've been working collapsed, so I was forced to find a new job, and that new job (where I'm still working) is remote due to you know what. And this is my first remote working experience.

I was thinking that the time that I save not to commute to the office will be a good time to make something for myself, but naah, man, not so fast.

There is a days, as you all know, when you just don't feel like working. At all. Remote work makes it a lot easier. But the feel of shame for doing nothing and getting paid for that stops me from doing my projects as well. Kinda toxic shame, but I can't fight it.

I can't quit my job right now, it would be stupid. Actually, I really like it. But that is not what I really want.

Thank you, you're good audience! Just needed to write it down, but if you're faced something similar, it would be great if you share it with me.