Trapped inside of yourself

My goal is to escape 9-17 jobs and I'm doing it with small steps.
I was developing my inner self through books and after-work projects of my own game.

And finally, I'm reaching the point where I would need to quit my job to push it further and faster. But it is impossible since people (graphic artist) will not pay themselves. I have other sources of income which would allow me to just stay on the surface on my own, but this is not enough.

And recently those thoughts started dragging me down.
I was feeling like I was trapped inside of myself.

Can't focus on my own project since a lack of time and tiredness from another job.
I even would have money to quit my job for about a year, but what if it fails it would drag me 2 years of work behind from financial independence.
I just don't have the balls to do so.

And this situation started to be more and more depressive.
So I started thinking A LOT about what shall I change in my approach.
After a month of mediation, walking and just resting I found out what was a problem in my case.

It was chase after money. I did a lot of talking to myself when I tried to explain that I can't force myself for all of this for money.

Slow down a bit with all this earnings thinking in the background. Even when the project is finished and successful what will I do next?? look at the path you are walking on and just keep it cool. Slowly and steadily try to reach the goal. Look back at yourself and keep track of all the improvements and enjoy the process since it will last probably till the day that I die. If I'll stop enjoying those things I would be DEAD INSIDE, which I guess is worst than actually dying.
It does not matter if the things that I create are awesome or medioker.
If ill be working on them they'll be getting better :)
I just need to stay on the same course but change my attitude. This is all that needs to be done

Money can't be a target of persuasion (especially for me, I don't know how to spend them. For me spending money is even painful I just know how to invest them and let's keep it that way).

If you did read this then
Thanks

Anyhow here is a link to my video if you would like to see my current project
https://youtu.be/RRCPGwWCe1A